kernel, reflections

though the fact that they were terrible did not mean that they were necessarily truthful

Month: July, 2013

I took your body as it was; empty. Your skin a beautiful white canvas. I filled the holes within you, I covered your flesh with my words and I kissed your pain softly.

and then I said “Lets make some music” and you smiled, happy. You were happy. No lyrics, a simple rythm for you I created, I taught you how to dance to it, you were free in it. And I was proud of you boy ; proud of how you could finally learn how to love.

what we-

Frightened/ I

your heart/my palm

I feel

beating to my words

while/I

jump/ I play/ I love

you.

I kiss

your forehead, the inside of your hand

I dance/ you laugh you

and/I

write stories about me and you, you, you

always you.

I/ enchanted

I/ beloved

I/ bewildered and tamed

bow to the love that comes from you

and you

stiff, obscure, strong

and I ,

just me,

I lay next to you.

Body/ I touch

bits and pieces

of herstory,

my story,

I brake/ I paint

I offer, my lament

to you, you, you.

Always you.

Give/ I

you take

you give

I/ take

and then

we..

create..

my beloved, we create us.

Drunk in the moment I feed off your kisses,

hold my hand, love

what we have done

is

magic.

what i’m not

I’m not just warm red blood that flows

between skin and bones,

I’m not your trophy, I’m not your prize

I’m not your eye candy, I’m definately not your prey

I’m not your follower , I’m not your toy.

 

I’m not your belonging, my body’s not a feast for your eyes

my body’s not your hands’, not your tongue’s paradise;

my hug is sacred, my love is magic.

 

I am the sun when it’s cloudy, I am your strength when you have none

I am your compass when you’re lost, I am your mother when you need one

I am the sea, I am the wind,

I am your friend, love.

 

read my words, my man,

I am me.

I left the safety of the edge of

I left the safety of the edge of the dock and plungled into the menacing waves beneath me.

somewhere between the dock and the sea my heart flipped; in that moment, I was free.

Cliff/I jump/from there/not is you. Hurt/I run years/from

Cliff/I

jump/from

there/not

is

you.

Hurt/I

run

years/from

you.

Pump/I

cliff/another

I/dance

and/I

of/think

you.

Hesitate/I

as/eyes

closed/heart

open

jump/I

remember that

my wings were never meant to follow

you.